Tuesday, August 24, 2010

I’m sorry it has been so long since I last updated the blog but things have been really busy for me... Both personally and professionally. All good!!!

As far as health I’m still doing well, I am off the chemo and Avastin (for now, I’m still on all my other meds). The doctors want to see if that changes the white spots at all. Also Duke University wants me to come up to North Carolina to see them. What’s going on with me no one has seen before, so they are going to have their top guy see me. They don’t think it’s bad… as a matter of fact they think it may be a side effect from the Avastin. They just don’t know what to make of it. Is it scary? Hell yes!!! When a doctor says we have never seen this before, it hits you right in the stomach. So as of now I am on standby waiting to hear from Duke as to when they want me to come up. When they say head up we will be on the next flight. What happens once we are there I don’t know. Will I be there for three days? Or three week? That is the scariest part… not knowing when I’m going or how long I’ll be there away from family. Again more uncertainty. This is the worst part… not knowing what will happen when I fall asleep and wake up the next morning. I know I’m still going to win and be around for a long time. It is just going to be a war with several battles along the way. I’m not going to let each battle or set back put me down… it’s just going to give me more strength to fight the next battle and eventually win the war.

Recently a friend asked me if I would trade the cancer for a leg… without hesitation I said yes. With losing a leg you know what you’re in for down the road. It’s not going to be an easy life but at least with a leg you can get a prostatic… I can’t get a prostatic brain.

I know we all have our hurdles in life some more serious than others… it all depends on your perspective and attitude. It doesn’t matter what your hurdle is in life… it just matters on your attitude. Don’t let it get you down and beat you up. You can win just like I’m going to.